Give Me the Words

I have no words for the feelings I have.  Not words that can make him understand.  Over and over I go in my head.  How can I do anymore to make it sink in?  I don't need anymore conflict.  I just need to be able to tell what I need to tell and be heard.  But, I have learned in these last months that it's not about that.  Communication is about him feeling better.  Not about figuring it out.  Not about hearing.  I've heard for so long.  I've responded for so long.  But now I just keep avoiding confrontation like the plague.  I like communication, but I'm done fighting.