Hey Girl, You're Gonna Make It After All

I am thinking that I am going to make it.  Maybe not intact as many would hope.  Maybe not as perfectly as I would have liked.  Maybe it won't look like my dream.  But, I do think that I will make it.  No matter how it looks, I believe that it can be good.  And, like "That Girl", I think I'm gonna make it after all.
Day by day.
I have to study and research.  Learn.
One little thing at a time.
Trying.
Giving.
Being willing to speak.  Today I just wanted to put it to words.  I got to my best friend's house.  I walked up.  I knew that I couldn't.  She knows much.  She knows me.  But to look someone in the face and say the things on my heart....the things that threaten to take me under....not sure that I should.  So, I will wait.  I will trust.  I will be patient with myself.  I'm worth waiting for.
I have had a good day.  Fear and trembling at moments, but mostly, just learning.  Seeking.  Listening.  Trying.  Not striving.  Simply giving it my best shot to be who I am supposed to be.  It's not easy.  But it's an interesting journey.
Will I be able to stand the crying?  The anger?  The disbelief?  The condemning heart spiritually?  Probably not, but I will be stronger than I am now.  And I will make it.