Don't Know

So much on my heart.  So few words to put it to.  I don't want to talk and explain anymore.  I just want to live life deeply.  Powerfully.  Exuberantly.  Wallowing is not my style.  This time is becoming burdensome.  But, I know that patience is a good thing.  So, I wait.  For what, I'm not exactly sure.  Permission, I wish.  But I have nobody to give me that.
I just have to know that I can be kind.  That though I can be angry, I don't have to be a butthead.  So, I'll keep trying to learn.  Keep trying to take responsibility for what I should own.  And, keep learning to let go of the rest.
I don't know exactly what I expected in life....but it's both better and harder than I ever knew it would be.  Good thing God is bigger than I knew too.