Girlfriends

It's time for me to plan a time with my girlfriends who have been there for many years.  Time to go away and have a night or a weekend to play and talk.  It's time for me to tell them the truth.  Maybe. I think so. To not remain in hiding.  To give them the chance to have their say.  Oh, I don't mean everything.  I just mean where I am and such.  Not all of the gory details. 
I need my friends.  Really need them.  In my heart and soul.  I need them to be beside me even if they don't agree or understand.  Church was hard today.  A friend was "prying", trying to figure out what has been up.  Has been pushing me to go out to coffee or breakfast.  I told her we could go but that I still wouldn't be able to talk about what she was hoping to find out. 
Today was a good day anyway.  Kinda.  Kinda teary.
Saw the girl play the sing on worship team.  Beautiful.  Twice.  I went to TWO services.  I was brave.
grace to you.