Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Burn, Baby Burn

Ok, remember that offending lingerie?  Those pieces that were hanging in my closet?  They are now ash.  Literally.  Talk about a release.  A good feeling.  Tossed them in the fire place.  They kinda made me shudder.   Amazing how touching them can bring back memories.  Pains.  Pretty intense.  And I did it.  With a friend sitting by.  It rather amused me.  Freeing.  Letting go.
It actually made me think how good it would feel to let go of different things.  Not a bad idea.  Good plan.  Not in a destructive way.  Simply a...purging.  There are things that are just too hurtful.
I won't burn pictures.  I won't get rid of our history.  I will learn to allow it to be a part of my story.  To remember that ALL that has been a part of my life is part of what has made me the woman I am.  And the painful times....the painful people....they have a place.  But they donBurning...'t need to stay in my present.
Well, I might burn a few pictures.  But not all.  I'll put some away until I can cope.  I'll put some up to let my kids know that it's ok.  But not quite yet.
Too bad I can't do the same with my internal hurts...turn them to ash.
Burning is satisfying.  Purifying.  Those pieces of lingerie are gone for good.  Forever and ever.  This is a very good thing.  Brings me hope.
grace to you.



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