The Beach

I should buy a beach house and name it "cheaper than a shrink".  My heart and mind still at the coast.  I feel....centered.  Balanced.  At peace.  Have no idea why.  Just do.
And I get to go next week.  Just for a couple of nights.  That will do.  Will have to.  Right on the water.  Can sit in the living room with a book or some tea and relax to the soothing sound.  Maybe there will even be a storm!!!
Of all of the things that my husband has never understood, this is just another of them.  I feel like I have lived my whole life with him trying to explain myself.
Today I really struggled with the knowledge that perhaps I am just too...difficult....to really love.  I mean, I know that I am incredibly complex.  I don't go with the status quo.  I like seeing different ways.  Different views.
I'm unique. ;)  Yeah, I know.  That's just a nicer way of saying weird.  And I know that I am.  It's not like I go out of my way to be.  Nor even try a little bit to be.  I just am.
There are so many things he has never gotten.  So many things I spend so much effort trying to explain.  But how do I explain how I love the beach when I don't know the reason.  I just know the.........experience.  The sense.  The feeling.
I am so tired.Just wish he'd let me be.
And now he's home.  Oh the joy.
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