i get this

my ex always treated me as if he was tolerating me.  not treasuring.  not cherishing.  not blissful.  not happy.

                                                                              simply tolerating.

it wasn't enough.  it just wasn't.  i tried to let it be.  told myself not to be so prideful.  told myself that eventually he would see that i was worth it.  he never saw my value.  he only saw his wonderful commitment of being tolerant.  

sad.