househunting

today, i was househunting.  online.  as a way to let off steam.  stress.  to relieve that overwhelming sense of desiring to do good and being constrained by a system.
so, i fled to the beach.  if only in my mind.  and computer.  i started calculating if i could sell my house in a few years and buy something that i could be comfortable in and even enjoy visitors near enough to the ocean.  i think that it's doable.  and my heart lifted.  because there is a plan.  there is constant growing.  and there will be change.
i am not my job.  i am here for a time to do good.  to love.  to give.  to bring joy.  to encourage.  but it does not define me.  there will be other ways to "make a living" as i move along and make a life.  deeeppp breath.  dreaming is good.  especially...when it can happen.  love that.
blessings.