Nights

How it is that I can be so tired.  Not feel too stressed.  And still not sleep well?  Dunno.  But, I have to start sleeping better.  Alas, not tonight.  Tonight is watch the kitties night.  Tonight is make sure the cat doesn't have a temp. night.  I'm so tired that I think I'm trying to stay awake because if I go to sleep.....I might not wake up to take care of the kitties.
I've set my alarm.  Hope I hear it.
I've been wondering today about the damn, damn, damn rolling around in my head.  I know it shouldn't be.  I just feel like cussing.  As if it would make anything at all better.  Who knows?  Perhaps that is all it would take.  Yeah, right.
But seriously, I'm not really a cusser.  Seems dumb. 
I just feel without words.  Crazy since I write.  But without words to express to myself my disappointment and pain.
I know that prayer is a better option.  Yet, still, I have the sense of saying them.  All day, just rolling around in there.  Lucky everyone can't read thoughts.