Change

I've had to change my choices.
Change my ways of choosing.
I have spent all of these years
choosing to make sure everyone
was ok......except for me.
Because I knew that I was strong.
That I could do it.
That I was able.
But eventually,
instead of him seeing me as
important
he saw me as expendable.
My hopes
My dreams
My gifts
had no bearing on life.
So, I had to find a way to change
I tried to communicate.
To show.
To explain.
To be kind.
To understand.
But what I have figured out
is that he is a bully.
A bully because....he is a coward.
He abuses quietly
but looks good outwardly.
He plays a game
when it suits him
but never really changes how
he behaves.
And now I've seen.
Now I understand.
Now I make a choice.
To change.
Today.
Each day.
blessings.