I Can Do This

I'm up.  I've gotten my kids up.  In twenty minutes we will leave to take them to school.  Then I have 45 minutes to kill to be certain that he has headed out to work.  THEN...maybe then I can finally settle down...on the floor or chair or couch.  I finally dozed off last night only to awaken a few minutes later with a raging headache.  So I spent my time awake again.  Dozed off maybe thirty minutes before my daughter got up.  And now?  Now it's time to be the grown up.
I know I can do this.  I have done hard things before.  This is only a few days.  After I figure out a place and some time to get some sleep, I'm sure that I'll be better.  I'm antsy now because I don't know to count on him being at or staying at work.....have this feeling he could decide to be home packing or something.
Last night I pretty much broke down.  It took hours to pull it together.  To be able to think a little more productively.  To be me.  It really wasn't a good time.
But, I get to be with my kids this morning.  I am alive.  I have breath.  I am carried.  Albeit it THROUGH the wind, rain, snow and yuck instead of around.
Now....on I go.  To live a life of honor.  Of kindness.  Of joy.  Of figuring out how to take a breath without having to literally THINK about it.
blessings.