i am enough....with jesus ;)

today was hard.

weird things can simply be too much.

like having to find a diploma.

my son needs his suddenly.

and it was most likely in the drawers of the 

dresser that i had to empty all over the floor

when my husband moved out. 

i wanted him to take the dresser he 

had been using.

but wasn't happening.

so, i had to go empty the dresser that 

had all of the art and keepsakes and photos.

and then i had to clear out the dresser

he had been using

of the things he left.

it was hard.

and then last week

i had to go through the stuff and box it up.

soooo....

somehow....

though it's stupid as can be

that just kicked my butt.

i nearly bawled.

and you know what?  

there's nobody to tell.

there's nobody to say

"there there sweetie."

it was just so stinking hard.

crying now.

that's probably what i needed to just do.

things like that just slam me.

into a brick wall.

and i feel bruised.

used.

hurt.

and i have no way to let people know

or to make them understand

because it just sounds

dumb.

but it's not.

i'm not dumb.

and i'm strong.

and with jesus, 

i am enough.

just like i am.

and i will solve the problem of the diploma

as i have solved so many problems.

and i am going to choose

to sparkle.

to shine.

to twinkle.

because life...

though some things are hard...

life is a gift.

and i want to love it.

blessings.