hospitality

i had company for the first time in awhile tonight.  a birthday party.  i think that it went well.  not for sure.  but hopefully people were comfortable.  it's a big week for company at our house.  really big.  our first thanksgiving without the ex.  and i was remembering last thanksgiving....and i'm thankful.  to be real.  to learn to relax and enjoy without having to be an extrovert.  though...maybe a little that i have to do. it was brave of me tonight.  i don't know why it felt so brave...but it did.
i want to be hospitable.  truly so. the kind in my heart and soul.  without the battles i had in the past.  I just want to see people relax and be comfortable.
i want to give my heart and live...i want to be full of hospitality.
blessings.