I had a friend say that his friend was going to throw him a party in half a year. He will have met his obligation in paying his ex. Apparently the party has a given name in male circles. It....crushed me. It hurt. Here I am troubled by the fact that I have debt from my kids' college, that I pay to keep up our rental house mortgage payments, that I pay for all of their needs and he feeds them a couple of meals a month......maybe. I pay for all of their needs. And their wants. And he will get to quit paying. Legally.
Got me thinking about perspective. My friend is different than my ex. He will still go halves on his kids' time and financial needs. He will just stop paying alimony. But the idea hit me hard that all of the time I put into marriage and raising kids and took away from my career was pretty easily brushed off.
So, in the midst of trying to stay afloat currently I also have to look down the road a year and a half. I have no clue how that will work. But, I will just trust that somehow it will. God is good that way.
But, I wonder when the hurt will go away. Ever? Maybe not.
The wound was deep. When it gets poked it hurts.
Got me thinking about perspective. My friend is different than my ex. He will still go halves on his kids' time and financial needs. He will just stop paying alimony. But the idea hit me hard that all of the time I put into marriage and raising kids and took away from my career was pretty easily brushed off.
So, in the midst of trying to stay afloat currently I also have to look down the road a year and a half. I have no clue how that will work. But, I will just trust that somehow it will. God is good that way.
But, I wonder when the hurt will go away. Ever? Maybe not.
The wound was deep. When it gets poked it hurts.
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