soup and sanity

you know, warm food is healing.  nourishing in more than nutritional ways.  it is a comfort to know that i have food.  that god has provided.  and it's a comfort just to get to eat something that tastes good and warms me on the inside.  i am not hard to please.  i am content with life and what i have.
today, i made a decision not to go out and about shopping because i was hungry...and thirsty...and i knew that i really have no business spending any money whatsoever right now.  but, on the other hand, i craved the companionship of my friend.  i wanted to be there.  to enjoy the moments.
yet....i needed to eat too.
funny how coming in the house was so hard, but how the nice warm soup that i had made helped me.  it was so good to know that i had a place to go, food to eat, coffee to drink.  ;)
i missed out on something, but i'll just have to do it another time.  this time, i wouldn't have been able to "participate".  and since she knows i am currently broke, it would have felt like mooching.  taking advantage.
i'll spend time with her if i get a chance.  i'll watch a movie or play a game of scrabble.  she is a good friend.
it was hard to say no.  to not give an excuse and have her make an offer that she would gladly make.  because she is kind.
i needed food.  i have food.  i needed to go ahead and eat it.  to be thankful.
i was.  i am.  filled.  thankful.  joyful.  warmed.
soup and sanity?  yep.  they go hand in hand.  i can't imagine how it feels to have nothing to feed your children.  or maybe because i can imagine it so well, it changes me.  i have food.  i love that.  i have toilet paper.  i read about some moms who are trying to live together and take care of their kids and they didn't even have toilet paper this week.  i have heat.  those moms were huddling with their kids to keep warm during this cold week.
i am so blessed.
now...to find a way to hang out that won't cost money.  at least for now.  because beyond soup...friends are what help us keep going.
blessings.