i have been conversing with a man who is divorced about the same length of time as me. he is nice to talk to. he seems kind. he has a sense of humor. yet, in my heart, i know that i will never marry again unless it's someone that is absolutely my best friend. i mean, not just ok, best. ever. like someone that i can't go a day without thinking about. and who likes me even when i'm not so great.
but my great aha came when i realized that i want male friends but that i will not be rushed or guilted into more. never.
the good aha reminds me that i have come far, but i am still recovering. the good aha reminds me that i am happy and have dreams. i want to travel. i want to be lazy sometimes. i want to do whatever i want whenever i want because i was not allowed to do what i wanted without guilt or payback for a very long time. so happy to have freedom.
freedom. to live. to give. to enjoy.
so good.
not selfish.
just taking care of self without having to take care of another adult. i've got enough on my plate.
blessings.
but my great aha came when i realized that i want male friends but that i will not be rushed or guilted into more. never.
the good aha reminds me that i have come far, but i am still recovering. the good aha reminds me that i am happy and have dreams. i want to travel. i want to be lazy sometimes. i want to do whatever i want whenever i want because i was not allowed to do what i wanted without guilt or payback for a very long time. so happy to have freedom.
freedom. to live. to give. to enjoy.
so good.
not selfish.
just taking care of self without having to take care of another adult. i've got enough on my plate.
blessings.
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