today. and tomorrow.

tomorrow i officially go back to work.  i've been doing things around my classroom and all, but tomorrow begins the real thing. it's going to be great.  a joy.  a blessing.  though i will be busy, it's as if everything has changed within.  it has taken two and a half years and i know that i still have growing to do, but i have found joy.  i hadn't realized how much so until a comment was made today.
a discussion was going on about divorce and how most people don't think it's a big deal or don't ask for details.  and i said that i guess i'm the "lucky" one because a plethora of people want to know and behave as if i'm disowned if i don't fess up why i'm divorced.  someone commented, "only two people did that though, right?"  and i said it was more.  and later, a few hours later...i realized how little people know of this journey and just how difficult it was.  and yet, here i am. happy and ok.  able to see good.  able to do what i need to do.  like...go to work.  have energy.  function. participate. but, people did care.  many haven't been very nice.  but it doesn't really matter.  that's the thing..it just doesn't matter.
and today, i went on a hike.  with my dogs.  and i worshiped. and it was a beautiful day.  and i'm not afraid to go back to school.  i'm excited and looking forward.
for
i am looked after
loved
nurtured
today.
and tomorrow.
blessings.