Clothes

I am  coming out of my cocoon.  Out of my shell.  I'm looking for a style.  I don't know what it will be yet.  Not exactly.  But not as nondescript as it has been.  Not bright.  But pleasant, classy.  I want my clothes to reflect the joy of my inside.  

I'm content.  I'm learning to be content with my bigger body.  This menopause thing is tricky.  On one hand, I am happy and content, but on the other, my body feels foreign.  I could work at it really hard.  I'm not sure that I want to.  Maybe.  

But mostly, I just want to be healthy.  I just want to be who I am..not how I'm supposed to look.  I just want to remember that my job is to accept and love me.  Then, I can do the same for others.  I'm working on it.  Accepting while at the same time understanding that I can change.

This is what I desire.  I want to be authentic.  I want to reflect on the outside the peace on the inside.  But I don't want to remain invisible.  I like wearing black and brown.  I like classics.  But I can have a style that is not hiding.  I'm working on it.  Slowly. I know what I am tired of being.  It's just taking some time to get to what I want to be.

blessings.