Why is it that when I risk asking people to meet my needs, I feel like I'm dancing around naked? I sent the invite for Easter. Some read. Some declined. Some didn't answer. Some haven't seen it yet. But, while I wait, I feel exposed. Like I risked more than anyone can possibly know. Like I want to try and move forward but somehow it is hinged on others allowing it too...on meeting me in this new place.
David danced naked before the Lord. I have this sense of being before God and just putting it all out there. My hopes, my failures, my needs, my wants....and trusting that some will still accept me where I am now.
I guess it was extra hard because I realized that we hadn't BEEN invited. That realization didn't come until after I had written my own invite. That made me feel even more vulnerable. So, here I am. Vulnerable. And I choose that over hardened. Over cynical. Over hopeless. I choose to move on. To go forward. To hope. To believe in the whole story of faith. Of the Resurrection and how that changed the whole world. And I choose to allow that "fearless" word that was given to me this year to lead out. There have been mountains. And valleys. And storms. Yet, here I am. God is faithful. Completely. Though I feel naked.
blessings.
David danced naked before the Lord. I have this sense of being before God and just putting it all out there. My hopes, my failures, my needs, my wants....and trusting that some will still accept me where I am now.
I guess it was extra hard because I realized that we hadn't BEEN invited. That realization didn't come until after I had written my own invite. That made me feel even more vulnerable. So, here I am. Vulnerable. And I choose that over hardened. Over cynical. Over hopeless. I choose to move on. To go forward. To hope. To believe in the whole story of faith. Of the Resurrection and how that changed the whole world. And I choose to allow that "fearless" word that was given to me this year to lead out. There have been mountains. And valleys. And storms. Yet, here I am. God is faithful. Completely. Though I feel naked.
blessings.
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