not stubborn. determined. ready to go the distance. ready to make a new life. it's not easy. it takes a tremendousy amount of learning...and relearning. i have had to figure out how to be kind to myself. how to trust without being used. i have had to change how i think. how i respond. i have had to monitor my thoughts. i don't just like the idea. it's not just my goal. i am determined. i will no longer live as i once did. a year ago today i walked into a courthouse and put in papers for a legal separation. i was brave. i was determined to change my life. to live differently. to honor god with who he made me to be.
a year ago. wow. he moved out nearly a month later. not quite, but nearly. three months from this date, i went to court for finalization. final. my ex doesn't hear that. he doesn't hear that i finally knew that is what i had to do. he doesn't get that i mean it. but i am determined to live. fully. faithfully. lovingly. kindly. joyfully. peacefully. and i have had a pretty good year. a really good year. though i've cried and struggled and faced a lot of emotional upheaval. it has been healing. i have grown. i have learned. i am becoming a woman that i will be able to be proud of.
blessings.
a year ago. wow. he moved out nearly a month later. not quite, but nearly. three months from this date, i went to court for finalization. final. my ex doesn't hear that. he doesn't hear that i finally knew that is what i had to do. he doesn't get that i mean it. but i am determined to live. fully. faithfully. lovingly. kindly. joyfully. peacefully. and i have had a pretty good year. a really good year. though i've cried and struggled and faced a lot of emotional upheaval. it has been healing. i have grown. i have learned. i am becoming a woman that i will be able to be proud of.
blessings.
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