I don't know what I'm going to do. Fell asleep on the couch during a movie at a friends last night. Slept. That was good. Tonight going to a movie with all. Have to face the night again. The daily harshness. The blame. I guess the fact is that I am to blame. Because I'm making choices.
I am so done. With his blame. His fakeness. His unkindness. Jealousy disguised as love....this one has always harmed me. I'm just so done. But I don't want to give up. I am not rash. I do believe in commitment. But, I can't go on living like this. Nearly passed out today. Stress.
He was mad at me again. Didn't invite him to go to son's house to pick up tv. Left. Said good bye. Called furious. I am stressed. I'm supposed to somehow not be fake. Keep the peace. Make him happy. And be sure I mean it. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Be back sometime.
grace to you.
I am so done. With his blame. His fakeness. His unkindness. Jealousy disguised as love....this one has always harmed me. I'm just so done. But I don't want to give up. I am not rash. I do believe in commitment. But, I can't go on living like this. Nearly passed out today. Stress.
He was mad at me again. Didn't invite him to go to son's house to pick up tv. Left. Said good bye. Called furious. I am stressed. I'm supposed to somehow not be fake. Keep the peace. Make him happy. And be sure I mean it. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Be back sometime.
grace to you.
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