Our lives are a journey that we walk together not in order to become "good christian women," but rather to draw near to God so that we can reflect His light to those around us. Our stories, our paths, our dreams and our message are all unique. But we hold hands and walk boldly, fearlessly......onward...creating joy, hope, faith and peace in our wake.

Sunday, June 3, 2012

self abuse

http://www.changemyrelationship.com/support-files/stopvictimizingyourself.pdf

being victimized begins a cycle of victimization.  it's hard to get out.  and when the offending party is absent, it's easy to take over and do it to yourself.  and when they are present, it's hard to see that it is self abuse to allow the abuse to continue.
i am having to learn a lot about walking away.  about not fighting battles that will never be won.  about living and not plotting or simply pretending that things are ok.
i am slowly changing back to who i am meant to be.  sometimes, in this process, i am a complete ass.  it's like i hurt so much and there's no outlet sometimes.  but mostly, because i can see it and make new choices....i think that it's going to be ok. that i'm going to be ok.  stronger.  more pliable.
and i am leaning.  seeking truth.  seeking strength.  and it's there.  freely given.  each moment.  i am blessed.
grace to you.

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