rope's end

tonight nearly did me in.  or maybe it was the day.  my practicum teacher melted into sobbing tears.  long testing day with kids that were crazy from wind and rain and clouds.  and then i came home to a house that was a wreck.  a guest bathroom in shambles.  dog pee on the floor.  a daughter's room STILL not cleaned.  and i finally....lost it.  i said that i was angry.  i told her that i resent that i am willing to work hard and even willing to do 80% of the work, but that i can't make it without help and with someone going around leaving all undone.  then i left and got us each a starbucks.  came home and we talked.  i didn't back down...which is unusual because i feel sorry for her.  but, eventually we poked around til we got to the issues.  i pushed the sore spots and got out the puss...so to speak.  and she is a happier girl with a clean bathroom AND bedroom tonight.   and she got off her chest that she is stressed by all of the school push of tests.  she is stressed by her friends saying what score she needs to have.  she is stressed.  but i finally said that stressed or not she has to do some things...that it's part of growing up.  and..she did.  and she was happy tonight.  we both bawled much, but it was healing too.
i need to tie a knot in the rope and try to get ready for this trip for the graduation.  could be why we are a little tired.
onward.