Some bullying is done in a passive way. It involves denying acceptance or kindness or even love. I was thinking about this today as I thought about the letter that my aunt wrote to me regarding my current circumstances. She made a lot of assumptions. She told me what I should do. She gave advice. She told me how I would feel about it. She never asked me how I felt or what brought me to this place. She never said that she'd be there for me. She said that I had been their pride and joy. Yet, if that were true, why doesn't she communicate with me except to tell me where I'm going wrong? She tells me how wise I used to be but won't hear my reasoning in the now.
And I wrote back and said that those things hurt me. It has been two days and I haven't heard back at all. So, like the first time she addressed the issue, she said her piece and when I didn't agree or do what she said, she ignored me.
I wonder if she knows how saying sorry would help. Or even simply loving unconditionally. But, bullying by withdrawing because I won't go her way is simply hurtful. Today I realized how much. How I don't want to hear from her and yet I wish that she would wake up. That she would be someone in my corner who knows that I wouldn't be in this place in life without a very good reason.....or a dozen.
Anyway, there are lots of kinds of bullying. And this one is as painful as the yelling kind. Maybe moreso because there's no way to fight back.
Instead, I must learn to live. To pray. To give. To choose. To be kind. I must. Because I know who I was made to be and Who I was made to follow.
It's a long road, but it's a beautiful journey.
blessings.
And I wrote back and said that those things hurt me. It has been two days and I haven't heard back at all. So, like the first time she addressed the issue, she said her piece and when I didn't agree or do what she said, she ignored me.
I wonder if she knows how saying sorry would help. Or even simply loving unconditionally. But, bullying by withdrawing because I won't go her way is simply hurtful. Today I realized how much. How I don't want to hear from her and yet I wish that she would wake up. That she would be someone in my corner who knows that I wouldn't be in this place in life without a very good reason.....or a dozen.
Anyway, there are lots of kinds of bullying. And this one is as painful as the yelling kind. Maybe moreso because there's no way to fight back.
Instead, I must learn to live. To pray. To give. To choose. To be kind. I must. Because I know who I was made to be and Who I was made to follow.
It's a long road, but it's a beautiful journey.
blessings.
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