Afraid

I don't know how to let people down, I realize.  I know that in order to survive, there are steps Imust take.  Know it to the depths of my soul.  For, people I love are getting hurt....and that will not do.  But, I can't explain to others why I need to get out.l  Why I need to distance myself.  SSooo.....what I am currently learning is that my fears can't keep me from doing what I've got to do.  Because, if it does, although I might "keep the peace" or "keep people happy", life will never be whole.  And the regrets that come from allowing the meanness and unkindness to continue will consume me.  So, I will not be defined by my fears.  Though they are very real.  I will stand and conquer them.  And those who really love me will stand beside me even if I don't please them.  And those who don't.....well, I'll miss them.