communicating

i've written some letters.  and emails lately.  and i haven't heard back.  at all.  and i thought that i would hurt more about it.  but, i'm learning that i'm stronger than i realize.  and that i can lean hard into jesus and he doesn't fall over.  i agonized for so long and tried so hard for so long that i have no doubts about where i am now.  and if some don't get it...then, that's just how it is.  i'll just have to live with it.  i knew that from the get go.  what is a get go?  does it come from getting going?  hmmm.  ok, a little distracted.  the a.d.d. blogger.
some people only want dirt.  they want the whys and hows.  another is stunned that it was so fast.  too me, it seemed like an eternity.
the only part that is really hard for me at this point is the whole communicating thing.  not telling the crap and not being fake.  it's a weird way to try to live.  some people are dying to hear the garbage.  others can't bear it.  me?  i wish that i could just relax about it.  no such luck.  have to always be on guard.
praying for you.  wherever you are in your journey.  remember....you are beloved.
blessings.