take care of you.

anger?  mostly it was pain.

but letting go of that is 

important too.

i am so tired tonight

paying for last night's

courage.

then up late.

then awakened early.

by my navy reserve recruit

who texted at 4:30 am.

then worked all day.

and then dinner.  

and make pillows.

and spend time at friend's house introducing

dog to their dogs

to be ready for vacation.

pick up boy.

run errands.  

exhausted.

but need time here to be quiet 

and rest

before sleeping.

and the thing about the above quote that got me?

some people aren't capable of love.

because he needs.

he wants.

he desires.

he gets jealous.

he owns.

but really, he doesn't love.

he uses his kids as trophies.

likes them to make him proud.

make him look good.

too tired to dwell too much on it.

but, turns out i almost 

ran into him at a friend's house.

wonder when 

i'll be able to be out of that time?

he has everyone

i have.

i'm so done with that.

blech.

but, that's probably the tired talking.

but....

somehow, 

i do need to be allowed to take care of me.

gnight.

blessings.