this mama

this mama is fried.  worn out with work.  the kids are beyond done.  it's time to play.  i can't wait until friday.  really.  because on friday i get to play with them.  and be with them.  and open presents.  and just enjoy the fact that we have earned a break.  and honestly, the two weeks don't seem like enough.  i am that shaky.  that tired.  two weeks seems....fast.
i need some time perhaps.  to be loved on.  i need a hug.  i have been running on low.  giving an awful lot out these days.  need to revamp myself.  take some quiet time.  remember.
god sent me a message tonight.  the moon was up and bright.  shining right through a heart of clouds.  it was beautiful.  totally unusual.  i was touched.  he uses such little things to revitalize me.
i will make it.  i will recover.  i will even get it all done for school..eventually.  i know that.  but i don't function well this way.  i need times of calm.  times to be alone and get charged up.  or with those who are easy to be with.  but lately, i have been inundated.  pushed..  pulled.  running incessantly.  every night.  every day.
this mama.  she be tired.
but.
evenso.
she be happy.
very happy.
blessings.