create. joy.

joy is a promise.  but it's something that i have to create.  have to choose.  have to see.  have to sense.  have to give.  have to acknowledge.  joy.
it lives.  breathes.  it enlivens.
but it has to be created.
or maybe it's the environment that has to be created in order to accept the gift.
all i know is that it's satisfying.
like a journey looking for treasure.
for gold.
you might only find dust.
or flakes.
or nuggets.
or you might find a huge vein.
but from the smallest amount
to the mother lode,
it brings exhilaration.
satisfaction.
and it keeps you hunting for more.
i am a joy creator.
for me.
for mine.
for others.
my purpose.
bring it.
give it.
revel in it.
and eventually, i want those things to be true ALL of the time.
but for now, i do it as much as i can.
learning.
creating.
choosing.
making it a habit.
come along with me.
it's worth it.
blessings.