saturday

i have found that i am tired these days.  more than i expected, i guess.  last night i was asleep at about 8 and slept all night long.  i've been mostly lazy today.  feels good.  down time.  without guilt.
i got a birthday present today.  it was so thoughtful because it was one of those things that i love but most people don't realize it.  old oil paintings in the really old wood frames.  beautiful.  a cottage.  touching.  i was hesitant whether i wanted a gift so early.  my birthday is nearly a month away and i usually only get about one present.  sometimes two.  and one card in the mail.  but this year, i probably won't get that one. soooo....i hesitated.  then i decided, what the heck.  i might as well take it and open it and be thankful in the now.  how cool that someone thought of me!  that was a gift all in itself.
i will be 49 this year.  pretty awesome.  i am choosing to remember what a gift life is.  to embrace growing older.  it's not a given.  it's a gift.
tonight i'm gonna have a glass of wine, watch a few shows and relax.  without guilt.  though i've only done laundry and made one donation box for goodwill today.  oh well.  life goes on.
blessings.