Making Myself Grow Up

I made myself stay on task today by giving my son my car to take to church and then work.  Not having my car means that I won't run to my friend's house for solace or for company.  It means that I'll make do with one of the  hundred things that I have to do here around the house.  And in doing that, maybe I will be able to allow my friends needed space.  I've been needy.  I know it and yet I just am what I am right now.  I can't change it.  But, I don't want to be that pain in the butt friend.  So, here I am.  Books in place.  Working on my classroom stuff.  Well, working on becoming familiar with it at least.  It may not be a huge step, but I feel like doing this was my way of thinking of others.  Of refocusing again.  Of learning once again how to give and not just receive.  Can't say that it has been easy.  Like solitary confinement in a way.  Yet....peaceful and good too.  Now, for a tv break.  Yes, I definitely get to reward myself. 
blessings.