goodbyes

this is a week to say goodbye to my third son.  another college bound kid.  that's pretty cool.  another kid that made it through school without drinking binges, drug habits, sexual promiscuity nor even running away.  we made it.  not saying they didn't have sex in high school.  but if they have, it's not a sex party.  and i'm not saying that they haven't had alcohol either.  probably wishful thinking.  but they have shown themselves to be respectful and have made good choices.
only one has an outgoing relationship with jesus.  the others believe in god.  have accepted jesus.  however, their lives are differently oriented at the moment.  i don't fear.  they have a foundation.  and He will call them and lead them in His time.  i am glad that they don't live fake christian lives. they are living.  learning.  seeking.  being real.  it's a good thing.  it's true.  hot or cold...no lukewarm.  no fake.  and the embers of faith will spark again.  god is faithful.  and he doesn't need my help of nagging. :)
i have to say goodbye.  again.  my heart is heavy.  my body tired.  my eyes wet.  the day hasn't even come yet.
love my kids.  love them too much to ever hold them back.  so....off goes another one.
blessings.