early

it's very early.
and i am awake.
not nervous.
not upset.
not worried.
not unhappy.
thinking.
how do i teach it best?
science is hard.
taxonomy.
to ten year olds.
how?
today is a big test.
i don't want them to just do well on the test.
i want them to understand.
i want me to understand better.
to explain.
to prepare.
i have to slow down to get further.
i need not to be afraid to be different.
i need to dress up more.
in character.
get their attention.
i need to be who i am.
not who others are.
to give kids what they need.
and i need not to hurry.
or rush.
or force.
i know what to do.
when i have time to be quiet.
to reflect.
and so.
i need to give myself time.
to be my best.
i'm awake so early.
it's quiet.
dark.
peaceful.
yes, i'm tired, but i'm also
thankful
because god knew
that i needed these moments
in order to make it through today
time to get my thoughts
in place
to have ideas
to just be still
and listen
a beautiful gift.
blessings.