oh. sooo. tired.

i work hard.  but it feels like we are constantly being asked to do more.  to try more.  to implement more.  to think differently.  to rewrite.  to reconsider.  it's like constant upheaval.  and yet, i like my job.  but. i like a slower pace in life.
and that has been my prayer these last days.  that god would show me a slower pace.  a slower place.  because i don't function well on high all of the time.
i need reflecting time.  quiet time.  still time.  alone time.  laugh time.  rest time.  i'm not a workaholic.  i love helping kids.  teaching kids.  but i want to teach them to be well balanced.  this isn't balanced.
and the ex?  pushes buttons, but he's losing power.  i have a life.  a good life.
tired.  must rest.
blessings.