enough

it's hard to draw the line at how much is doing enough for my job.  i could work seven days a week 12 hours a day and still have work to do.  but i'm at work for nine hours a day.  i spend time on sundays.  and i'm not excelling.  always behind.  always jumping the next hoop.  and yet, i love connecting with those little lives.  i make a difference.

but sometimes i have to say the words to myself, "you have done enough for today."  that's how it is tonight.  still so much more to do.  but, i have done enough.  it's not done.  but, i need time for me.  time to write.  time to be quiet.  time to think of something else.  time to rest. my mind as well as my body.  

enough is not all.  it is sufficient.  

and i feel....a bit like a failure.  how do so many do it so much better?  faster?  i don't know.  i pedal as fast as i can and remain at the end of the pack.  

oh well.  i've done enough.  for today.  i will start again tomorrow.

blessings