I'm sitting by a couple...grandparents..who are here at the Starbucks with their grandson. The way the grandpa interacts nearly brings tears to my eyes. He talks about how Nana is the best. He talks gently. He engages his grandson with what the little boy is doing and talking abut. It's beautiful.
And I remember that there is a whole and beautiful world around me. So much good. So much kindness. It's easy to forget that in trying to remember how I need to protect myself. Not from the whole world. Just from him. I must be careful. Because this whole world is amazing. And I don't want to miss it. i don't want him to take anymore from me than he already has. But I have to find that woman who keeps peeking back out and let her thrive. I have to remember how it was to care...but not dependently care. To be strong...but not be alone. I know how. It is who I am. Though I don't interact with everyone. Though I am more of a small circle person. I am friendly. I am able to allow myself to be loved. Seen. For who I am. Where I am.
Beauty all around. Including here in me.
grace. to you.
And I remember that there is a whole and beautiful world around me. So much good. So much kindness. It's easy to forget that in trying to remember how I need to protect myself. Not from the whole world. Just from him. I must be careful. Because this whole world is amazing. And I don't want to miss it. i don't want him to take anymore from me than he already has. But I have to find that woman who keeps peeking back out and let her thrive. I have to remember how it was to care...but not dependently care. To be strong...but not be alone. I know how. It is who I am. Though I don't interact with everyone. Though I am more of a small circle person. I am friendly. I am able to allow myself to be loved. Seen. For who I am. Where I am.
Beauty all around. Including here in me.
grace. to you.
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