learning to listen to the whisper of my soul

so many times i have pushed forward.  done what was expected.  good things.  church things.  busy things.  doing things.  but, i am learning to hear that whisper and to do and be what i am uniquely called to do and be.  it's rather fun.  takes a lot of work.  of prayer.  of trying it yet again.
but it's coming.  and it's healing.  because i am not valuable because of what i run around trying to get done.  i am valuable because of how i am the only me.  so when i lose who i am, the world misses that.  well, my little  part of the world.
i am good at problem solving.  at getting tasks done.  at being easy going.  and yet also at getting a job done.  i need quiet time.  and i need friends.  i need touch.  my soul requires peace.  and it needs to be a way of life.
and the spirit who lives in me keeps whispering and encouraging and teaching.  and i am a ready and willing student.
i am so very content.  joyfully so.  happily so.
for awhile i was so sad that i wasn't getting my happy ever after.  turns out that i was listening to the wrong voice.  this is my happy ever after.  for the right now.  and it's beautiful.  though difficult and different.
blessings to you.