I should buy a beach house and name it "cheaper than a shrink". My heart and mind still at the coast. I feel....centered. Balanced. At peace. Have no idea why. Just do.
And I get to go next week. Just for a couple of nights. That will do. Will have to. Right on the water. Can sit in the living room with a book or some tea and relax to the soothing sound. Maybe there will even be a storm!!!
Of all of the things that my husband has never understood, this is just another of them. I feel like I have lived my whole life with him trying to explain myself.
Today I really struggled with the knowledge that perhaps I am just too...difficult....to really love. I mean, I know that I am incredibly complex. I don't go with the status quo. I like seeing different ways. Different views.
I'm unique. ;) Yeah, I know. That's just a nicer way of saying weird. And I know that I am. It's not like I go out of my way to be. Nor even try a little bit to be. I just am.
There are so many things he has never gotten. So many things I spend so much effort trying to explain. But how do I explain how I love the beach when I don't know the reason. I just know the.........experience. The sense. The feeling.
I am so tired.Just wish he'd let me be.
And now he's home. Oh the joy.
blah blah blah blah blah.
And I get to go next week. Just for a couple of nights. That will do. Will have to. Right on the water. Can sit in the living room with a book or some tea and relax to the soothing sound. Maybe there will even be a storm!!!
Of all of the things that my husband has never understood, this is just another of them. I feel like I have lived my whole life with him trying to explain myself.
Today I really struggled with the knowledge that perhaps I am just too...difficult....to really love. I mean, I know that I am incredibly complex. I don't go with the status quo. I like seeing different ways. Different views.
I'm unique. ;) Yeah, I know. That's just a nicer way of saying weird. And I know that I am. It's not like I go out of my way to be. Nor even try a little bit to be. I just am.
There are so many things he has never gotten. So many things I spend so much effort trying to explain. But how do I explain how I love the beach when I don't know the reason. I just know the.........experience. The sense. The feeling.
I am so tired.Just wish he'd let me be.
And now he's home. Oh the joy.
blah blah blah blah blah.
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