I had a dream last night of telling him. I saw that look in his eyes...the one that rarely flashes...is usually controlled. And, strangely, in my dream, I paused and looked at the look and purposed to remember it when I awoke. The raw anger. But, tell him I did. In my dream. And, I can tell that means that I've just about worked through things. ;)
I have composed an email in my mind addressing the things we need to address. I think that will help me to broach things and give him time to think too.
And, I told someone far away. She didn't take it too well. All about how it can still work out. It's funny. I know that. I even believe it. I just can't deal with that right now. But she wasn't horrible. I am learning to say what I need to say. And...without blame. That is SO hard. Just want to throw something else out there. I did that with my one friend, but I am trying not to. No juicy tidbits. Just a decision.
Time is coming at the beach. Found a place. A good place, I think. Can't wait to see my boy. And relax in the most likely rainy weather. I need it. It will be wonderful.
grace to you.
I have composed an email in my mind addressing the things we need to address. I think that will help me to broach things and give him time to think too.
And, I told someone far away. She didn't take it too well. All about how it can still work out. It's funny. I know that. I even believe it. I just can't deal with that right now. But she wasn't horrible. I am learning to say what I need to say. And...without blame. That is SO hard. Just want to throw something else out there. I did that with my one friend, but I am trying not to. No juicy tidbits. Just a decision.
Time is coming at the beach. Found a place. A good place, I think. Can't wait to see my boy. And relax in the most likely rainy weather. I need it. It will be wonderful.
grace to you.
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