My email inbox is full of travel emails. Where to get the cheapest rates. Where to go. When to go. Hmmmm. Think there's a theme? If it weren't for my babies, I would be gone I know it. Because the only time I really function is when I'm away.
The thing is that being with him caused a driven aspect in my life. I'm not particularly..........driven....I'm more relaxed yet directed. I like to get things done...but I really like to see what happens along the way as well. I became driven because it made him......happier. Now I barely function when he's around. Even the thought of him being around. I don't want to BE with him. Don't want to have to go back to a house that he's at.
Time to get moving this morning....but with care for my heart. Listening to how I feel. I don't want to end up how I was the other night. That scared the bejeebers out of me. Hope that I didn't need those bejeebers.
grace.
The thing is that being with him caused a driven aspect in my life. I'm not particularly..........driven....I'm more relaxed yet directed. I like to get things done...but I really like to see what happens along the way as well. I became driven because it made him......happier. Now I barely function when he's around. Even the thought of him being around. I don't want to BE with him. Don't want to have to go back to a house that he's at.
Time to get moving this morning....but with care for my heart. Listening to how I feel. I don't want to end up how I was the other night. That scared the bejeebers out of me. Hope that I didn't need those bejeebers.
grace.
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