I am not a drinker. But, I have to say that tonight I wished that I was. I simply wanted to "check out" for awhile. I am so very raw. At the end of energy and high on stress. And I have a lot to do coming up. It's crazy. And I dreaded coming home tonight. Could barely face it.
But, I DID do it. And I can do the hard things. And I can be strong. And I can breathe. Well, at least I can sometimes.
But, I wear simple clothes. Easy to choose. I am on a low maintenance schedule.....and I'm ready to be on a pampered schedule.
I need sleep. Eventually, I'm sure. Good sleep. Nobody to think about. Nobody to meet their needs.
Not having to wake up because others are.....I'm just so weary. And crying is not exactly easy in my current situation.
Yes. I wanted to drink. Not always. But tonight I wanted to. I didn't. Because I just couldn't bring myself to face that I am that pathetic at this stage. Escaping.
Ok. Enough whining....probably because there was no wining. ;)
night.
But, I DID do it. And I can do the hard things. And I can be strong. And I can breathe. Well, at least I can sometimes.
But, I wear simple clothes. Easy to choose. I am on a low maintenance schedule.....and I'm ready to be on a pampered schedule.
I need sleep. Eventually, I'm sure. Good sleep. Nobody to think about. Nobody to meet their needs.
Not having to wake up because others are.....I'm just so weary. And crying is not exactly easy in my current situation.
Yes. I wanted to drink. Not always. But tonight I wanted to. I didn't. Because I just couldn't bring myself to face that I am that pathetic at this stage. Escaping.
Ok. Enough whining....probably because there was no wining. ;)
night.
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