creating

i am finding freedom in my word of the year.  create.  it makes me so responsible for what i choose.  and yet, it frees me.  i don't have to fake it...i can work to create a real, bona fide, beautiful life.  i can see the good.  i can have fun.
i have been doing pinterest like a fiend.  i have found a way to put flooring into my laundry room..and even wallboard.  i am pretty proud to find it.  and i will make time to begin.
i have found a day to take off and take my kids to the zoo.  gotta create those memories.
i have found a way to create an open line of communication with my hurting son.  and it hasn't been easy.  but he is a good kid...doing better being away from home.  but we talked while he was home and we will hopefully be in better touch this semester.
i have created a way to celebrate and worship though i'm not ready to find a new church home yet.  strangely, i had decided that i would go with my son's friend's parents so that maybe he would go with me when he come home...but...seeing as how his dad has taken to spending time with them, i think that i'd better get about creating a new plan.
i have created a safe environment for me to try.  to fail.  to learn what i want.  to picture things differently.  explaining why i'm now looking for chandeliers. :)
create.
it's so inclusive.
create health.  i gotta exercise.  must.  but i don't.  it's one of those things "he" pushed me to do.  so....i think i'm more resistant than i ought to be.  i like not being bullied but i also know that i need to get more strict with myself.  it's coming.
now....creating health by getting some sleep.  it's 1030 and i get up quite early.
blessings.