Brave

I was brave today.  I went to a lunch with people from church.  I prepared my mind in advance for any questions.  I prayed.  I took deep breaths.  I acknowledged that for me it was hard.  Even if it "shouldn't" be.  I allowed myself to have my own feelings.  I prepared my heart.  I focused on why I was going....someone I care about graduated with her master's.  Summa Cum Laude.  God did great things to get her there.  And I wanted to be there to let her know how I recognize and appreciate that road that she walked.  And is walking.  So, I went.  And, I was fine.  A little bit nervous but willing to do it.  Courageous.  I didn't even hyperventilate.  Which was good.  But, I regret that it has become so difficult for me. However, many things are getting better.  So, I will focus on those and I will be thankful that I survived today.  God is good to me.  He gets how hard it is for me to get back out there.  And He breathes His peace into me.
grace to you.