Turns out that I'm easy. No, not that way. But, for so many years I have felt like I'm difficult. Like what I need is just too much. Like I'm too much trouble. Like I'm in the way.
But, lately, I've come to realize....I'm pretty easy. Easy to please. Easy to feed. Easy to amuse. I am not high maintenance. How I came to feel so much like I was a problem is a part of my story. It's way too easy to get involved in marriage and how to make it work and completely miss the fact that the WHOLE purpose isn't just to get by. It's to get better. To make better. To grow. To learn. To fly. To add to the value of the other as well as to yourself. And to get that in return.
I feel like life is just beginning again. Like I'm just learning to enjoy each day again. Like I'm remembering how very GOOD life is.
I am easy. I need to remember that it's not all my fault. It is true that I'm not what he wants. But that doesn't mean that who I am isn't worth wanting.
grace to you.
But, lately, I've come to realize....I'm pretty easy. Easy to please. Easy to feed. Easy to amuse. I am not high maintenance. How I came to feel so much like I was a problem is a part of my story. It's way too easy to get involved in marriage and how to make it work and completely miss the fact that the WHOLE purpose isn't just to get by. It's to get better. To make better. To grow. To learn. To fly. To add to the value of the other as well as to yourself. And to get that in return.
I feel like life is just beginning again. Like I'm just learning to enjoy each day again. Like I'm remembering how very GOOD life is.
I am easy. I need to remember that it's not all my fault. It is true that I'm not what he wants. But that doesn't mean that who I am isn't worth wanting.
grace to you.
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