Yep. That's me. I filed for legal separation today. It takes me a long time to do things sometimes. I wanted to be sure. I was. I am. Now, I have to have him served the papers.....that's gonna be a pain. I'll have to figure it out though.
I am not doing it out of anger. Nor out of meanness. I had to get to that point for my own heart. I am doing it for me. For the woman I want to be. For the woman I know that I am but have neglected for far too long. I knew that one day I would get to that point if things didn't change. I expressed it many times. I could feel the end coming. He thinks that I should keep on forgiving...keep on giving chances. And I will keep on forgiving. I simply won't leave myself living in this lifestyle. It is toxic. It's like drinking water in a radiated area. Eventually, it WILL make you sick.
So, I was very very brave. I have a sense of accomplishment. I know that there are bigger mountains. I know that this is simply a step. But it was a significant step.
with grace.
I am not doing it out of anger. Nor out of meanness. I had to get to that point for my own heart. I am doing it for me. For the woman I want to be. For the woman I know that I am but have neglected for far too long. I knew that one day I would get to that point if things didn't change. I expressed it many times. I could feel the end coming. He thinks that I should keep on forgiving...keep on giving chances. And I will keep on forgiving. I simply won't leave myself living in this lifestyle. It is toxic. It's like drinking water in a radiated area. Eventually, it WILL make you sick.
So, I was very very brave. I have a sense of accomplishment. I know that there are bigger mountains. I know that this is simply a step. But it was a significant step.
with grace.
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