out of the shadow, into the light.

i have a place that i am supposed to be in this world.  a purpose.  i have spent a long time trying to keep someone else happy.  someone else shining.  someone else being successful.

but i have to remember that doing that is not wrong.  what made it wrong was how he took it and didn't give.  how he hurt me.  how he wouldn't hear.

i am so brave.  so very very brave.  full of it.  ;)  but sometimes, i just want to lay down and give up. other times, i rise.  i will rise more frequently as time goes by.  yes, i will. i will go forth.  with joy. i will find purpose.  true purpose.  not in only lifting up others.  but in lifting up the me that god created. actually, allowing him to lift up my head.  what i am supposed to do.  what i was created to be.
he loves me.  made me.  holds me.
he gives me strength.  and he is....proud of me.
and though that man did these things....and though i was an accomplice in it....i am brave enough to let go of that and live.
blessings.