Sickness and Health. Richer and Poorer.

I have been healthy and sick since I've been unmarried.  I have been richer and poorer.  I have wondered how to make it on both fronts...health and money.  I have prayed.  I have rested.  And honestly, for the first time in many years, whether I'm sick or well, struggling or in abundance....I have a sense of peace.  A peaceful heart.  Though I don't know how it will all work out in times to come.  Or even tomorrow.  I just know that it will.  And being sick when I'm not married is a lot easier in that I don't have the disappointment that he doesn't get it.  I feel free.  Oh sure, sometimes it would be nice to have someone that grabs me that cup of tea...which I really want right now but simply can't get up to do even one more thing.....or fluffs my pillows...or whatever.  But, I never had that, so, it's not that big of a deal.
I am content.  Joyfully so.  Though life isn't easy or predictable.  And my kids are getting more peaceful...over time.  They swing back and forth, but overall, we have crossed some great hurdles.  I have seen more smiles in the last couple of weeks.  One son is jazzed about playing games with friends.  Another that he is driving.  My daughter has a boatload of friends and loves singing.  Life...though difficult...is good.  Very good.  I'm really ill though.  But, only two more days until the weekend. 
blessings.