Today I was looking for a quick fix. I KNOW that things are going to be ok. I UNDERSTAND that I can make new choices. I know that peace is mine. I know that it's getting better. But I can't shake the heaviness. The not being able to face doing much at a time. I was feeling rather down about it. Because I want to be well. I want to be healthy. I want to live. I want to get some things done.
And then that voice whispered, "it takes time." Healing takes time. It takes energy from the body. When I had the flu a couple of years ago, there was no way I was getting up and getting going. My body had to get better. And though this is emotional pain, my body still has to get better. It's like having a deep injury and needing rehab to get it back to working right. A little exercise at a time. Working at it. AND resting too.
Giving grace to myself to take that time is difficult. Have a mountain of want to do's. Especially since I have been paralyzed for so long. But, now that I'm not paralyzed, I want to do it all today and get overwhelmed when one little thing takes it all out of me. Instead....I'm going to celebrate those little things.
from grace with joy.
And then that voice whispered, "it takes time." Healing takes time. It takes energy from the body. When I had the flu a couple of years ago, there was no way I was getting up and getting going. My body had to get better. And though this is emotional pain, my body still has to get better. It's like having a deep injury and needing rehab to get it back to working right. A little exercise at a time. Working at it. AND resting too.
Giving grace to myself to take that time is difficult. Have a mountain of want to do's. Especially since I have been paralyzed for so long. But, now that I'm not paralyzed, I want to do it all today and get overwhelmed when one little thing takes it all out of me. Instead....I'm going to celebrate those little things.
from grace with joy.
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