It's In The Mail

My husband keeps saying that he'll email.  But he hasn't.  Just like people say "the check's in the mail," but it isn't.    He was home before 8:30 last night...so, so much for he'd do it if "it wasn't too late when he got off work."  It hurts my heart to keep seeing over and over again how he simply won't do anything toward what I say I need.  I get that he doesn't WANT to.  But, I've done a lot of things for him over the years that I haven't really wanted to either.  Sometimes, when you hear someone, love someone, see someone, you realize that the only way to show them is with what they need.
He doesn't get that.  After over 20 years.  He doesn't get that he is pushing me further and further away.  Amazingly further.  More distant.  With less desire on ever revisiting how things might end up.
Stillllll no email.
That's because he wants to talk.  Tomorrow.  Not sure what I'll do about that.  I'll figure it out.
grace to you.