Challenging Life

This last week

has been 

really really really really (etc)

hard

difficult

challenging

tough

bullish

trying.

And today,

my eye itself

not the skin

eyelid

outer eye

the 

EYEBALL

hurts like fire.

Too much use

yesterday.

Too much being up.

But.

How can I live

from here on my bed?

One eye usually closed.

Resting.

With a heating pad.

Or ice.

Or both. 

With meds that make my body sleep.

And not hurt.

Hmm.

I can simply realize

that this IS 

life.

A quiet moment

in life.

A still time.

A painful time too.

But a gift.

To stop.

To wait.

To watch God work.

And to learn not to be

FRUSTRATED

with lack of progress.

But rather,

to appreciate the view out the window.

The stillness of a moment.

The scent of flowers. 

The whoosh of a sprinkler.

And just revel

in each breath

as a gift.

Because for now

that is what it seems to be.

Because when I try to do more

I pay for it.

Of course

I have to shop today.

Or not.

We'll see.

blessings.